Wednesday, June 10, 2009

This weekend I was listening to a guy talk about that story in the Bible, you know the one that talks about the woman with the issue of blood, she had been sick for like, 12 years or something? Anyway, he was talking about how Jesus was surrounded by all sorts of people and he was bumping into everyone and how she made her way through that mess, knowing that if she could just touch the hem of His cloak that she would be healed. As this guy was talking, I was picturing the whole scene. And I saw something there that I have never seen before. That woman touched Him on PURPOSE. It was her INTENT. While everyone there was crowding Jesus and accidentally bumping him...she reached forth, pressed her way through the madness, with expectation and touched Him. It was then that Jesus felt that power leave His body.
As all of this played in my mind I thought.. "I want to be that woman". I want my faith to be intentional. I do not want to be one of the crowd, walking and talking with all the others and merely brushing up against the saviour, only making contact because I happened to be in the right place at the right time. I want to pursue Him, reach for Him. I want my PURPOSE to be that I touch Him. In the mayhem of life, I want to push through, with intent, and grab, with full knowledge of what I am doing.
I don't want to be one of the ones who is pushed along by the crowd, being tossed this way and that, never quite sure of my destination. I've come "here" for a reason. My life has purpose. .. I have spent so much of that life merely surviving the throngs of people and circumstances...
I know that at different times in my life, I have been part of the crowd and I have been the woman with the issue ( I'm ALWAYS the woman with an issue). Sometimes as part of the crowd I have brushed up against God. But it wasn't the same as when I was actively pursuing Him. Those were the precious times. Those were the times that saw me through, that built up my faith. Those times that I sought God unreservedly, apologetically, with complete abandonment. I sought Him ON PURPOSE, and His power flowed.